confessions + gifts

my friend betsy says i have the spiritual gift of dream catching.

i don't know if i know about that, but i'm accessorized well if it's true.

i've been thinking a lot about gifts + dreams + life lately. i'm doing a lot of growing and changing, and that leads to lots of new thoughts.

in alice in wonderland, the Mad Hatter comments on Alice's loss of 'muchness'.

i feel like i've lost my muchness.

like i'm afraid to go after what i really want. like i might make someone mad if i do, or i might step on someone's toes, or someone might think i'm dumb if i open my mouth.

then last night: meltdown. full on angsty-angst meltdown. i'm getting really close to figuring out my dreams, and taking all kinds of leaps towards reaching them. but for every step forward, there are two steps back. that's part of growth, right? [yes]

after we wrapped filming a little project for the church, and i was melting down on the inside, my friend made me stand in the room we were using for filming and punch his hands. i don't know how to throw a punch, but he made me punch his hands anyway. i was surprised at what i found myself saying while we stood there.

i'm scared, i don't trust, i don't want, i do want, i can't, what if?
so much growth, so fast, means i might have forgotten who i am a little.

i've forgotten my muchness.

i'd like to sleep now, and work on remembering it when i wake up.

office days + studio nights

Happy Friday all :] I'm about to go and spend a happy friday night in my basement studio. You can expect to see a little of the following over the weekend:

+ A new vlog!
+ A new stopmotion [well, it's new to this blog :]]
+ Photos uploaded to 365project on flickr
+ Progress made on a new scrapbook [note to self - print some new photos!]
+ A few tries at some digi-scrapbooking. Spent some time researching and looking up tutorials [ps - this lady here is brilliant and i'm learning a bunch! i might sign up for one of her online classes soon, i love it!]

... or i might just sit in my space and watch a movie and eat chocolate. either way ... it's a good day!

quiet world

I took some time out last night to go shoot a stop-motion sunset. It was freezing yesterday, and something about the cold makes the air and the light so clear! It was breathtakingly beautiful out there. So many shots in this video remind me of why I am quiet+world+creative. I became who I am in this place. As much as I look forward to leaving here someday soon, to live closer to my life, I will always have a spot in my heart for this place, this land, this light.

enjoy :] all photography copyright paul holley and katie holley, 2009 and original music copyright katie holley 2009.


my quiet world from quietworldcreative on Vimeo.

life images

this is a little collection of images from my inspiration file - some things/ideas i want more of in my life in the coming year. what do YOU want?

things that have been inspiring me today ...

 

this music video

 

and this music video

 

red furniture

 

this new journal {currently sitting on my desk}

 

this amazing desk {i'm on a quest for the perfect desk right now. why is it so hard??}

what is inspiring you today?

journal + pages

i just recently finished a journal and thought i'd share some of my favorite spreads [i just typed 'favorite friends' and i don't really know why? but i guess they're friends? anyway. it's been a long day!]

shots from the studio!

I'm so excited to have been able to take a few days during my 'staycation' and reorder my world. My bathroom's never been cleaner and I've never been happier. Happiest of all, though, is a renewed studio space! I've never been that artist who can live and work in chaos. I like to work in a clean-ish space (I know that 'clean' in a studio space is pretty relative, but you know what I mean, right?)

Some shots of my renewed inspiration boards!


my inspiration boards hang over my drafting table, where most of my creative/writing work gets done during the week:
Since I've been on 'staycation' I've been catching up on podcasts while I paint.

Coming up this weekend: sneak peeks of some new creations + thoughts on creative process :]

--k